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In case anyone wanders on to this livejournal to find out why I haven't updated in awhile (It's only been a week, but updates are slow nowadays), it's because I'm having some complications with my Crohn's disease, specifically arthritis. I mostly get it in my hands and feet, and it makes typing more than a few words at a time quite painful.

I've also had regular Crohn's symptoms and an ongoing migraine, so I'm just kind of chilling and hoping I get back to health soon.

Please be patient as I'm trying to overcome the arthritis, but I can barely do my job so I've not been in the best of moods either. I fear I may be a bit snappy if people start reviewing and demanding updates. :( I apologize in advance.

Thoughts on Depression

Just some thoughts I thought I'd share as I'm trying to post something about writing every week.

Slight spoiler for 100 Love Letters, among thoughts on depression and suicideCollapse )

Why, hello livejournal *raspy voice*

I think it's time I finally gave this journal some organization. I really do want to do something with this to the point where people actually read it (lol). So I'm going to try to write at least a blog post a week about writing, whether in general or specific to my stories. It may also be a vlog post. ;-)

Also, I may assemble a FAQ because I feel pretentious and important if I have a FAQ. But... most of my FAQ are from my stories? I don't know. If you have a burning question feel free to leave one in the comments and I'll put it on my FAQ entry.

This journal is also going to be used on my journey towards publication, not just fictionpress, so... yay! I'm writing a novel now that hasn't seen the light of day (cough all three pages of it... I've been busy with my play), and I'll be talking a bit about that, though in more vague terms. It's mah baby.

I don't want to get too into organizing right now because I'm babysitting and I just had a moment to log on and check my email and stuff while they boys are watching Sesame street. More later... if I get time today! I'm way too busy with school and line memorization and Ash Wednesday Services and rehearsal!

Mrrrhmmm...

Haha, I was reminded this LJ existd. Hi!

Nothing much happening in the life of Aurette, except I'm working on lots and lots of writing and I'm going insane not traveling.

I think going to Hong Kong kickstarted the wanderlust in my brain, because I am no longer the MUST HAVE AIR CONDITIONING AWESOME BATHROOMS AND ENGLISH SPEAKERS AT ALL TIMES. What I'm saying is it's my dearest wish to become a backpacking hippie and travel through Southeast Asia for a few months next year.

Yeah.

Like that. What that means is... I won't be writing my stories for awhile (but it's not going to be for a year yet), my parents are going to kill me (but I'll be 25 so it's not like they can stop me), and I'm really going to learn to not ask what food is before I eat it. I started that at Hong Kong, and I intend to continue.

Anyway... I forsee lots of adventures in my future. I'm in a play now, and will be in another afterwards, and a summer musical.

It's a huge decision whether I want to go to school in the fall or Asia, but I think school will win out because I have ot register now and I don't want to drop the bombshell of "Oh hey, I'm goign to become a vagabond and not see you for an undetermined time in Laos, India, Thailand, etc." to my parents for quite awhile. Darn my responsibility.

Too bad I didn't graduate already. School is annoying.

Anyway, that's my futre life endeavor plans, along with writing a book about my experiences and buying a pair of Tevas.

I am so weird.

I suck at updating this thing.

So much has happened. Um, I finished So Real, which was awesome. I started a new story called 100 Love Letters, and I'm updating pretty quickly.

I also have the first chapter of Goodbye Until Tomorrow written, which is the third story in my To Feel the Sun series. I wanna get further in Letters before I post, but considering how fast I'm updating Letters, it shouldn't be too long.

I've always had a soft spot for rock star stories, and I finally decided to write one for Fictionpress. Letters was originally going to be a short story about a girl who wrote love letters to her future husband, and I thought I could expand it and add in a rock star and it'd be fun. Sooo, that's what I'm doing.

In life news, I've moved in with my brother Paul. Living with a boy is annoying, because he leaves his clothes in the middle of the bathroom floor and never takes out the trash. But I guess living with a girl is annoying too because I make him clean before he plays PS3 and my nail polish is taking over the bathroom.

Paul and I are going to be performing the Complete Works of Shakespeare with a friend in march, and we are TOTALLY excited. It's one of my favorite shows, and I've wanted to perform in it for years now.

I adopted a kitty. I won NaNo. Um, that's about it. Nothing new or groundbreaking, really. Except I want to go on another mission trip soon. Not next summer, since I"m going to perform in the Secret Garden (YES), so probably in the fall or summer of 2012.

Maybe I"ll update this thing more in the future.
Haaaaay. I forgot I had this thing. Oh Well, I WAS in Hong Kong for like two months. Which was awesome. Hopefully I'll write a story inspired by my experiences one of these days.

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I didn't even know I was nominated (because I couldn't access SKoW in good ol' HK). But yaaay! That James, he's a cheeky bastard.

just FYI

A third story in the Two Feel the Sun series (for lack of a better name) is planned. I came up with it awhile ago when I was planning on how to end So Real, and decided the epilogue I wanted to do would be awesome as another story.

The narrator will be Sarah, Gracie's twin. We finally will get a lot more insight on how she feels about Gracie and why she acted the way she did in To Feel the Sun. Of course, she has a love interest, and I confess his background popped into my head when I 'discovered' his name. He's similar to Jonah in that the has a strong ethnic background, and he has a cultural reason for being Lutheran (albeit a non-church attending one).

Aaaanyway, I am excited for it, and excited to write more on So Real. I might lift the hiatus on that story alone, since I have a lot of ideas for it. We'll see.

I have to go to work now. Tata.

Here I am

I'm pretty sure that I'm going to go on hiatus... I just don't have time to devote to writing all my FP stories.

Instead of Uganda, I'm being sent to Hong Kong for six weeks at the end of the summer, and I'll be there on my twenty-fourth birthday. In between planning for that (a lot of waivers and paperwork!) and my heavy school schedule, I want to concentrate solely on my novel. That doesn't mean you can't expect any updates... I have half a chapter of So Real written and someday I may get a hankering to write that. But we'll see.

A lot's going on in my life right now, and I couldn't be happier. I'm finally, finally, finally at peace with my life and where it's heading after several tumultuous years of indecision and "decisions" which turned out to be wrong. What does this mean? It means I'm loading up classes, going to Hong Kong to teach English, writing my heart out, and attempting to be social despite my introverted nature. And taking lots of pictures in between.

It's such an amazing feeling to finally be content with your life, to not be dogged by feelings of inadequacy in all your physical, mental, and emotional realm. I can't even describe to you how wonderful I feel now. I'm healthy, happy, and hopeful. What more could I want?

I feel like such a dork saying all of this, but it's true. You never understand just how wonderful being content can feel unless you've been in that dark depression. Five years ago I had no idea I would be where I am now. I'm a little late to the adult party, but that doesn't mean I can't run and catch up. My life makes sense now, and that's more than I can say for a lot of people.

Having a purpose... it's just what I needed.

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Why, hello.

I haven't been writing much, here or on FP, because I've been pretty busy with school. I'm loving it, by the way, but it's taking up a lot of time. A lot of reading, and a lot of time and money for my photography class, and all that. Plus, I'm working on my novel.

I apologize. I really want to update but I've been so preoccupied! To Feel the Sun was nominated in SKoW for Best Cliche. I don't know if the voting period is still going on or not (I'm way too tired to go check).

I've been taking medication since December now, and when I stopped taking one of my scrips, I started getting horribly bad joint and muscle pain. I woke up this morning and nearly shrieked from the pain in my elbows and hands. Ugh. I have to go back on that scrip temporarily and then wean myself off of it, so hopefully that'll help ease the joint pain.

I've applied to go on a mission trip to Uganda this summer, and I'm waiting to hear back. I'm crossing my fingers and hoping and praying. I thought I would have heard by no, but nothing. If I don't hear by Saturday, I'm emailing the lady to check on the status of my application. I need to know so I can get a passport and start fundraising. Travel tickets are expensive.

I have more to say, but I'm really tired and typing hurts my fingers a bit. More later!

A secret gift!

I'm only posting this here, and the only place I'm mentioning this is on my twitter!

I wrote a short little vignette between Jonah and Gracie. I don't actually remember writing it, or when I wrote it (obviously after I wrote "When he said 'press send' he meant I love You"), but I found it and thought it was cute. It's after their wedding, before they do married people things, as we jokingly called it in high school.

It has no title, but it's cute, in my opinion anyway! I hope you like Jonah's and Gracie's little discussion.

I checked myself in the bathroom mirror one more time.Collapse )